Oh baby!

All of you now know that this is Zoers and that we have a slight love problem with her! Some people may say that I am turning into “the cat lady” but I can assure you that I am not. I just like to kiss her and hug her and put her in little baby things? SO not a cat lady, but that is why we really need a baby! :)

Speaking of baby… No I am not pregnant. But Dustin and I have been trying to for a little over a year now. We had been trying to keep it on the down low for many reasons. 1. so that we could surprise our families, like totally surprise 2. so that we could surprise our friends 3. Just in case it did take us a while that people wouldn’t feel bad telling us that they get pregnant. 4. because it is something special that Dustin and I were excited about and wanted to just share it with each other.

We have changed our minds on keeping it a secret for many reasons. 1. It is a VERY emotional process and the more support I feel like I have, the easier it makes it. 2. It was kind of stressing me out keeping it a secret, my body deals with stress in odd ways. I never feel like I am stressed but I will get either killer stomach and chest pains or I will get cold sores. Let’s just say I have had 6 cold sores in the last 6 months, so I must have been stressed! 3. It is like the main focus in mine and Dustin’s lives and not really talking about it was hard, especially because we are so close with our family and friends. 4. Again, because it is SO SO emotional, if anyone has ever tried for a long time to get pregnant you know exactly what I mean, and Dustin being a male, is so supportive and gets disappointed, but doesn’t quite understand how it feels as the woman. All the support from girls that have been through the same thing is the BIGGEST relief, just knowing that someone knows how I feel. 5. It will still be a surprise when I tell everyone. 6. I was turning into a crazy person, just ask Dustin, or actually don’t! I feel like us not keeping it a secret has already made a huge difference.

The reason I am posting this on my blog is NOT for pitty but for Dustin and I to look back and remember everything we felt and went through to have the little booger in our lives. (especially so we will remain grateful when the little booger is being a little booger)

I called my OB/GYN last month when I started my period because it came very early and the last 6 months my period hasn’t been very regular, which was odd for me, so we went in, he put me on Clomed (I really don’t know how to spell it?), which is a pill that regulates you, makes you ovulate on day 14 and start your period on day 28-30. He said we will give it 3 months and if I am not pregnant in 3 months we will do more testing on me and Dustin and see if there is something else we can do.

I started the Clomed this month and so we will see how it goes. This pill also doubles your chances of having twins, Yikes, totally better then no baby just having 2 would be a little nerve wracking, but we will take what we can get!!!

I know that we will get pregnant and I know that the baby will come when he/she feels like it, if you’re listening, WE ARE READY!! :) I also know that when it does happen we will look back and be so grateful that it happened when it did. I have all the confidence in the world in Heavenly Father and I know that he knows what I need more than I know, so I am just putting all my trust in Him and will be so thankful when the time comes. I have also realized that I am glad that it has been harder than getting pregnant right away, even though it has been really hard, because I will be so grateful when I am pregnant, even if I am horribly sick.

Dustin always teases me because I really want to avoid making the baby have a December birthday so that is when it is going to happen, the baby will be born on the 25th. We will just wait and see and jump for joy when it happens!

Sorry for being so long winded but I really want to remember all of this and be able to show our baby how much we wanted and prayed for him/her to come.