Wow!

After a long 15 months of emotions, anxiety and desire, we are finally pregnant!!! I am only 8 weeks pregnant but we have told everyone already because there were a lot of people praying and worrying about us and we didn’t want them to keep worrying. Plus I am a terrible liar, so I wouldn’t be able to keep it in for long!

In another post I will post how we broke the news to everybody .

The day we found out: It was a Friday and with the medication I was on I usually started my period on day 32, this was day 34, so in the back of my mind I was curious but not letting myself get excited.

That day I was having terrible back pain, I thought I was passing a kidney stone or something, so I tested my urine at work (I apologize this is probably tmi for a lot of you, but what can you do?) my urine came back with a trace of blood, which can mean, something kidney related, something period related and a few other things. So I called my Dr. My amazing nurse was out sick so I talked to someone else who told me that my pain and the blood could mean so many different things. She told me to take a pregnancy test to make sure it wasn’t my period and then to go to the ER if my symptoms got any worse. 

I was very nervous, I didn’t want to take the test early because I didn’t want to be sad sooner than I had to be, but I called Dustin and he came over to my work. (We have pregnancy tests at work that I can take for free).

My friend kindly left the room so that Dustin and I could be alone. After a minute of anticipation I turned and looked and the most beautiful pee stick I have ever seen, there were 2 lines! Yes 2 lines, not 1, 2! It was a sight for sore eyes let me tell you. Dustin and I were both speechless, I gasped and we hugged and my friends were spying through a window, when they saw me smiling, they flung the door open and started screaming! It was the weirdest feeling in the world. Dustin just kept saying I have a hard time believing that, that stick is telling you that we are going to have a baby. It wasn’t till we started telling our families that it really sunk in.

The Dr.’s office: So, because my nurse was gone, my Dr. had the nurse that was covering for her call me and check to see how my pain was doing. I told her I was feeling better, no more back pain and that I had a positive pregnancy test. She congratulated me and was going to pass the news to my Dr.

Tuesday I get another phone call from the Dr. and this time it was my nurse, she asked about my back pain, I again told her tat I was felling good and that I had a positive pregnancy test. She was really excited but she also was a little nervous that I was having an ectopic pregnancy, which is when the egg doesn’t fertilize in the uterus and fertilizes in the fallopian tube. She said not to worry too much because she felt like I would still be in a lot of pain if that was happening. She suggested that I come in and get a blood test to see the levels of the hormone that you produce when you are pregnant. What happens when you are pregnant is, your level will be a certain number and after 48 hours that number should double or more if you are having a “normal” pregnancy. She also asked if I wanted an ultra sound. At first I was like well, we will just do the blood test and wait 48 hours, do it again and wait for results. Then as I was thinking that is a VERY long time to wait and see if I am having a successful start to my pregnancy.

We decided to get the ultra sound. We went in and the ultra sound tech found the sac and we were so happy, it was in the right place. We were feeling some sort of relief, then I got another phone call the next day, saying 2 things 1. Your levels look great they were 2,700 and 2. But the radiologist couldn’t see a baby in the sac so we want to redo your levels in 48 hours to make sure things are going well that way, which will be comforting, and also do a follow up ultra sound in about a week.

The reaction: YAY, levels are awesome!! Then pit in my stomach, you mean there might not be anything growing? 48 hours holy cow that’s a long time! I am going to St. George this weekend, what am I supposed to do??

The results: My nurse called me on Friday, a long Friday might I add, while I was in St. George, to tell me that my levels were awesome they were 6,100. She said that was an amazing sign because if there was something really wrong my levels wouldn’t have climbed that much. At this point I am feeling pretty good. That news will get me through till I had my ultra sound the next Thursday.

Thursday finally came, we went in and the ultra sound tech was there and right away we saw a little tiny baby, basically looked like a little circle but it was there with a heart beat of 107 and everything! I was so relieved, happy and ready to actually enjoy the big moment!

Things I have learned in my very short time being pregnant: 1. I have to eat NOW, whenever I need to eat, which is very often. 2. Heart burn is not just for old people who eat Mexican food. 3. If I listen, my body will tell me exactly what I need to be doing or what I need to stop doing. 4. Tired has a whole new meaning. 5. At 6 weeks my baby had a heart, brain, spine and blood vessels and it was only the size of a poppy seed!? 6. Falling asleep at the wheel 3 times is NOT okay. 7. Going to bed at 8:30 IS okay. 8. Telling family and friends early isn’t a bad thing, it makes things a little easier when you are feeling a little crappy to have some understanding. 9. My husband really loves me, I’ve always known but I can really feel it now. 10. It’s normal to want to punch someone in the face, even if it is someone you love dearly. 11. I am not an embarrassing human being that I cried during the after the final rose ceremony of The Bachelor 12. A lot more people then I thought were thinking, praying and fasting for us. 13. How amazing, selfless, caring and faithful people in my life are! 14. That I am really happy!

I just want to say thank you so much for all the prayers. I have never felt so much love in my life. We are so blessed to have the best family and friends in the world, I know everyone says that, but really we do, trust me! I wouldn’t trade 1 single family member or friend that I have for someone else, I really mean that and I hope that one day I can show you all, all the love that you have shown me, even if it was just through prayers and thoughts, I felt it. I love you all so much and I can’t wait to share our baby with all of you!